Flimsy

I wouldn't be surprised if you stopped waiting.  It's hard.  I've been there.  If you go back to your old habits then you never intended to change.  I thought we were stronger than this, but I guess I'm the one not brave enough to face you when all I feel is pain.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry that you no longer know the person you loved.  I'm sorry that I have changed so much it hurts you.. That I hurt you.. In every possible way.  You're braver for wanting to change and wanting it to work.  My head is in a mess.  My heart is in disarray.  I need you more than ever but I keep pushing you away.  I don't want you to be miserable.  I don't want to hurt you anymore.  I'm sorry.  I love you but I'm sorry.